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I miss everyone.
Always.
It's terrible.
I can't go day without missing someone.
Or something.
Sometime.
I always want something that's already happened.
So much that I miss the present.
And that's how I screw it up again.

Put an 'x' next to artists who you have songs by, even if it's only one.

I could only go so long without posting on here.
I missed LJ too much.

School is over.
Me and Megan are over.
Discuss.

1.YOUR ROCK STAR NAME: (pet and current street name)
Jayjay McKenzie-Lake
2. YOUR MOVIE STAR NAME: (grandfather/grandmother on mother's side first name, favorite candy)
Larry Pocky
3. YOUR "FLY GIRL/GUY" NAME: (first initial of first name, first two or three letters of your last name)
T Be
4. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite animal, name of high school)
Spider Centennial
5. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born)
Andrew-Graham Winnipeg
6. YOUR OPPOSITE SEX NAME: (name of dad/mom, cell phone Company you use)
Wendy Telus
7. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (first 3 letters of your last name, last 3 letters of mother's maiden name, first 3 letters of your pet's name)
Benngsjay
8. YOUR JEDI NAME: (middle name spelled backwards, your mom's maiden name spelled backwards)
Maharg-Werdna Sgnippot
9. YOUR STAGE NAME: (middle name, street you grew up on)
Andrew-Graham McKenzie-Lake
10. SUPERHERO NAME: ("The", your favorite color, the first thing you see when you look to your left)
The Black Scissors

If you had me alone...locked up in your room for 24 hours and we could do whatever you wanted, what would you do with me?

Tell me in a e-mail(daydreams.of.nightmares@hotmail.com (And be honest!))...cause it's a secret...then repost this in your blog...you might be surprised with the responses you get

Your Body Image is 84% Unhealthy, 16% Healthy

You don't feel good about the way you look... pretty much ever. And it's impacting your life so much that you need to seek help.

You Are 74% Indie

You're a very indie person, and admit it, you look down a little on people who strive to be normal. You'll indulge in a little mainstream pop culture every now and then. But for you, anything not indie is a guilty pleasure!

Which Summon Are You? Find out Here!

We had our L.A. exam today hlysht.
I think I did okay.
I'm pretty good at reading.
Silly provincials.
The grade 9 ones are easier than the grade 8 ones.
Srsly.
I'd fail those if I took them again.
I'm acctually pretty scared though of what my parents will do to me over summer because I kindaforgot to hand in a lot of stuff.
And they'll prolly try to make me do 2 hours of homework a day over the summer or something silly like that.
And not let me explain to them that I don't have any.
"YOU'RE LYING.  I'M CHECKING WITH YOUR TEACHERS."
Icanseeit...

Wow.
The school year is over.
I'm acctually really going to miss everyone.
Next year is going to be so different.
I haven't been all alone like this since grade 4.
Though.
Maybe I'm not.
Jiancheng will be with me.
As will Arman, and he's a'ight.
And, maybe Marissa will still talk to me.
Even though I'll be a silly little grade 10.
I hope not everyone finds out I'm bi again though.
That would be awful.
I don't know...
I'll just deny it all high-school at least.
Last year, I really wanted to sabotage myself it seems.
So I admitted it, and flaunted it.
And of course people found out.
Next year, I'll be damn quiet about it, and deny it to everyone.
Then, they might leave me alone.
I don't exactly seem like that type anyways.
Especially if I try not to.
I need to sortof find myself over summer though.
The end of grade 8 fucked me up pretty bad, and I'm still not exactly normal and stuff.
I'm going to miss a lot of other people though.
Werier,
Tyson,
Connor,
And espcially Megan.
Even if I do manage to see everyone every once in a while, it still won't be the same without seeing them every day like now.
Me and Tyson have seen each other just about every day since grade 4.
Now, we won't anymore.
It's just, weird.
Hopefully I'll make new friends.
People seem to think it shouldn't be too hard for me.
But I don't know.
I repel a lot of people...
It might take me a few months to at all build up my new clique.
That's the problem with my tendancy to be a leader not a follower.
I can't just go tag onto some group.
Or I won't fit in at all.
I need to sortof wait for one to form with me already in it.
Which can take a while...
I don't know.
I can't be there for a whole year and never make a friend.
That would be hard to do...

I updated my LJ layout.
Come see ^_^.

The devil loves gay sex.
Honestly.
As of today, I've lost a friend to the pope.
So I suppose I've learned a lesson.
To the final circle of hell you go.

Okay.
So.
I totally have a girlfriend again.
^_^.
Kekekekekekekekekeke.

Your 2005 Song Is

Mr. Brightside by The Killers "It started out with a kiss How did it end up like this It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss" Let's just say you're happy to be done with 2005!

Your Political Profile:

Overall: 75% Conservative, 25% Liberal

Social Issues: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

Personal Responsibility: 75% Conservative, 25% Liberal

Fiscal Issues: 100% Conservative, 0% Liberal

Ethics: 50% Conservative, 50% Liberal

Defense and Crime: 100% Conservative, 0% Liberal

Fiddler is over.
Wreee.
Now I can attempt to rebuild the little bit of a life I ever had.

Supposedly One Bright December is going to get together tommorow.
So maybe songs can be recorded.
And if not social, I can at least be productive.

I still need to talk to Mr. Clemens at school about artificially raising my grade to a 65% so I can repeat next year.
Because I'm in a grade 9 and 10 class, meaning we're doing both of those years of science.
But I'm going into grade 10 science next year.
And they're counting this class as only grade 9.
So if I fail, like I will because I'm not good enough at science to be in an advanced class.
I will end up in science 14 next year.
So I'll be going down a level if he fails me.
And if he passes me, I'm repeating.
So I really need him to do that.
Though, I'm intending to try and get 95% on the final exam.
Because then, he could give me a 35% this term and I'd still get into science 10.
Wouldn't it just be the pwnage too?
83,65,50,35 in class.
And then 95 on the final.
Ahahahaha.
That'd finally show how useless he is...

Ohand.
I like fucked up my fingers too.
Because I was dancing and I hit my hand on the roof >_>.

Heh.
Back to my old habit of listening to Reggie.
I wish he wasn't so fucking good.
Because then maybe I'd listen to other stuff sometimes XD.
And he's hot too ^_^.
Except that he's like.
Old.
But still.
He's a cute old.
And I'd totally date him ^_^.
I'm so gay.
Lol.

Place an X next to the ones you’ve done. And then add up the totals.
10-20= goodie good
21-30= a little rebellious
31-40= getting there
41-50= rebel
51-60= bad girl/boy
61-70= bitch
71-80= fucking bad ass
81-90= damn
91-100= cant believe you made it this far



( ) smoked (weed or cigs).
( ) consumed alcohol .
( ) slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex.
(x) slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex.
(x) made out with someone of the opposite sex.
(x) made out with someone of the same sex.
(x) had someone in your room of the opposite sex.
(x) watched porn
( ) bought porn
( ) done drugs
TOTAL:5

(x) taken pain killer.
(x) taken someone elses prescription medicine.
(x) lied to your parents.
(x) lied to a friend .
( ) snuck out of the house.
( ) done something illegal .
(x) cut yourself
(x) hurt someone.
(x) wished someone to die.
( ) seen someone die
TOTAL:7

( ) missed curfew.
( ) stayed out all night.
(x) eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself .
( ) been to a therapist .
( ) been to rehab .
( ) dyed your hair .
( ) recieved a ticket
(x) been in a wreck .
( ) been to a club
( ) been to a bar .
TOTAL:2

( ) been to a wild party.
( ) seen the Mardi Gras .
( ) had a spring break in Florida.
( ) sniffed anything .
(x) wore black nail polish .
(x) wore arm bands
(x) wore t-shirts with band names.
(x) listened to rap.
( ) own a 50 cent cd
TOTAL: 4

( ) dressed gothic.
( ) dressed prep.
(x) dressed punk
(x) dressed grunge
(x) stole something .
( ) been too drunk to remember anything
(x) blacked out .
(x) fainted .
( ) had a crush on your neighbor.
(x) had someone sneak into your room .
TOTAL: 6

(x) snuck into some else's room .
(x) had a crush on someone of the same sex .
(x) been to a concert .
(x) dry humped someone.
(x) been called a slut .
(x) called someone a slut.
( ) installed speakers in your car
(x) broke a mirror .
( ) showered at someone of the opposites sex's house.
(x) brushed your teeth with someone elses toothbrush.
TOTAL: 8

( ) consider ludacris your favorite rapper.
( ) seen an R rated movie in theaters .
(x) cruised the mall.
( ) skipped school .
(x) had an eating disorder.
(x) had an injury.
( ) gone to court
(x) walked out of a restaurant without paying.
(x) caught something on fire .
(x) lied about your age .
TOTAL: 6

( ) owned an apartment .
(x) cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend .
(x) cheated with someone.
(x) got in trouble with the police.
(x) talked to a stranger .
(x) hugged a stranger .
( ) kissed a stranger .
( ) rode in the car with a stranger.
(x) been sexually harrassed.
(x) been verbally harrassed .
TOTAL: 7

(x) met face to face with someone you met online.
(x) stayed online for 12 hours straight.
( ) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours straight.
( ) watched tv for 12 hours straight.
(x) been to a fair.
(x) been called a bad influence.
(x) cursed .
(x) prank called someone.
(x) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex .
(x) cheated on a test.
TOTAL: 8

(x) cheated on homework .
(x) held hands with someone of the opposite sex.
(x) been pushed into a pool.
(x) played pool.
(x) watched 5 hours of mtv straight.
(x) had a crush on someone 10 years older than you.
(x) had a crush on someone younger than you.
(x) wear eyeliner .
( ) skinny dipped .
(x) laughed at someone who was crying
TOTAL: 9

[ Tanya ] [ Spanish = <3 ] says:
So are you going to lie every time you talk to me now?

Yes.
That's obviously it.
Why does everyone suck?
The simplest psychology can explain just about everyone.
When people hear something, and then hear a contradiction, they assume the later is true.
Always.
It's funny.
Tell the truth after the lie gets spread, and they'll realize it.
If you tell the truth first, and then they hear a lie, they'll beleive the lie.
People are easy to convince.
And they only remember the last convincing.